I think it's impossible not to see how much we all care about each other.
[so - it's strategic. in the past, jiuqing has used people who care about each other against each other, when she's needed to - she's relied on it, in some cases, to save her own skin - so she understands why, but it makes her no less frustrated when it happens to her or to people she cares for.]
[She said as much before. She said she would go and seek her, Kashuu, and Vin out to make tea and have them talk. Because she's learned from experience that keeping things down is like poison, stifling, bitter.]
I know a lot happened. The war. The dragons. The fact that it was Estinien's and Aymeric's world. But something in particular has dug its claws down deep in you and the others, and won't let go.
...it happened over and over again. And - each time, I forgot a little more. I forgot what led me to that place, I forgot what had happened before then, I forgot that... it had even happened, already. Until each time it felt fresh, but... the injuries, they stayed.
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And then - near the end of each... "scene," I suppose, it all came rushing back. And that voice would ask me - was it worth it?
she hugs her back, because honestly, she's exhausted just thinking about it.]
With Percy, it... we were at the trial, the one after Sir Chang died. He - accused me. Even though I knew it was him. And every time, all of you believed him. And then he was the one who volunteered to execute me, every single time.
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[....]
Misery, and suffering. For what.
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[is it better, for the misery and suffering to have some meaning, some purpose? or is it worse? ...but...]
But... the people here were the best parts of it. I wouldn't want anyone to have to go through all of this, but I'm very glad to have met all of you.
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[She closes her eyes.]
It's no wonder that this place uses the people we know here against us. It knows how much we care.
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[she nods]
I think it's impossible not to see how much we all care about each other.
[so - it's strategic. in the past, jiuqing has used people who care about each other against each other, when she's needed to - she's relied on it, in some cases, to save her own skin - so she understands why, but it makes her no less frustrated when it happens to her or to people she cares for.]
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[......]
[She said as much before. She said she would go and seek her, Kashuu, and Vin out to make tea and have them talk. Because she's learned from experience that keeping things down is like poison, stifling, bitter.]
[Her eyes are still closed.]
What happened on that adventure of yours, Su?
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she really should have known hot pants would ask.]
A lot.
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I know a lot happened. The war. The dragons. The fact that it was Estinien's and Aymeric's world. But something in particular has dug its claws down deep in you and the others, and won't let go.
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Up until then - they were together, but I was on my own.
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What happened to you, when you were alone? Were you in another place entirely?
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Just - different parts of it. I think they visited one of the places I was shortly after I left it... we kept missing each other.
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.........So. What happened, Su? You were covered in...what was it? Dried blood?
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[she nods]
Some of it was mine. Some of it - wasn't.
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.......Who did that place force you to kill?
[She's been on two adventures. She knows exactly how this works.]
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[she looks down at her tea.]
It wasn't... just once.
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[She...looks pained.]
What do you mean, it wasn't "just once"?
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[...]
And then - near the end of each... "scene," I suppose, it all came rushing back. And that voice would ask me - was it worth it?
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[Yeah, no, she's coming over to her to embrace her.]
[She doesn't even have words at the moment.]
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she hugs her back, because honestly, she's exhausted just thinking about it.]
With Percy, it... we were at the trial, the one after Sir Chang died. He - accused me. Even though I knew it was him. And every time, all of you believed him. And then he was the one who volunteered to execute me, every single time.