I know a lot happened. The war. The dragons. The fact that it was Estinien's and Aymeric's world. But something in particular has dug its claws down deep in you and the others, and won't let go.
...it happened over and over again. And - each time, I forgot a little more. I forgot what led me to that place, I forgot what had happened before then, I forgot that... it had even happened, already. Until each time it felt fresh, but... the injuries, they stayed.
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And then - near the end of each... "scene," I suppose, it all came rushing back. And that voice would ask me - was it worth it?
she hugs her back, because honestly, she's exhausted just thinking about it.]
With Percy, it... we were at the trial, the one after Sir Chang died. He - accused me. Even though I knew it was him. And every time, all of you believed him. And then he was the one who volunteered to execute me, every single time.
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she really should have known hot pants would ask.]
A lot.
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I know a lot happened. The war. The dragons. The fact that it was Estinien's and Aymeric's world. But something in particular has dug its claws down deep in you and the others, and won't let go.
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Up until then - they were together, but I was on my own.
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What happened to you, when you were alone? Were you in another place entirely?
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Just - different parts of it. I think they visited one of the places I was shortly after I left it... we kept missing each other.
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.........So. What happened, Su? You were covered in...what was it? Dried blood?
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[she nods]
Some of it was mine. Some of it - wasn't.
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.......Who did that place force you to kill?
[She's been on two adventures. She knows exactly how this works.]
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[she looks down at her tea.]
It wasn't... just once.
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[She...looks pained.]
What do you mean, it wasn't "just once"?
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[...]
And then - near the end of each... "scene," I suppose, it all came rushing back. And that voice would ask me - was it worth it?
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[Yeah, no, she's coming over to her to embrace her.]
[She doesn't even have words at the moment.]
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she hugs her back, because honestly, she's exhausted just thinking about it.]
With Percy, it... we were at the trial, the one after Sir Chang died. He - accused me. Even though I knew it was him. And every time, all of you believed him. And then he was the one who volunteered to execute me, every single time.