[jiuqing's vibes are very certain - but then, they would be, wouldn't they? waking up to a second chance at life is nothing new to her. this is perhaps not quite the situation as her own case, but the facts are the same: hot pants was dead, and now she's live.
they'll find a way back to their own worlds, but she doesn't believe that hot pants will simply drop dead after leaving the prism.]
I believe that when someone is given a second chance, it's for a reason. So... there's no way that it's just going to be the end for you once all of this - [she waves a hand to indicate their current situation] - is over.
You saw my memories. What would you tell me if I said that it was perfectly fine for me to take risks, because I had already died once?
[Her emotions...react with a sort of understanding, and for a moment, it almost feels like she's ready to believe - except something seems to drag them back to where they once were, like they're stuck in a rut, unable to be free.]
I mean...you do what you can with your life. And its good you have a second chance. Its what you deserve.
[Her emotions falter at that touch, eyes hesitating before glancing back at her. Warmth, uncertainty, but that overall melancholy sitting in her bones, unable to let go.]
I'm not a good person, Su. At least...I'm trying to make it up for not being one. I don't know if I deserve that much.
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[It's hardly fair. She's coming over to stand by her side.]
It's hardly fair.
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[she looks down at the plants.]
...it's disgustingly unfair.
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November, too. [And there's a pang of sadness there, deep down.] Neither of them deserved it.
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I'm tired of all this killing.
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[It's nonstop killing, over and over again.]
And it happens like clockwork. Until what? We all die?
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Until we find some way to stop this.
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[Everyone here deserves to live. She herself...]
[She closes her eyes.]
If we have to tear this place down to do it, I would.
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[Her voice drifts off at that.]
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[Caught in the act!]
[But her sorrow pangs at that, deep.]
...I didn't tell you, did I?
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[hmm. she sounds nervous about what her answer might be. i swear to god if you're about to have her say she's dead, crystal...]
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[A sigh. She's looking at that sprout, again, melancholy hanging over her, even through the exhaustion and pain coming from her.]
I'm already dead, Su.
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["Right now".]
Yes, well. I am. So I'll use this borrowed time as much as I can.
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You're going to hold onto your life even after we get out of here. It's not borrowed time - it's your time, and you're going to keep it. Promise me.
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[Because she wants to believe in that. That she can go back, and she can continue to live life, but...]
[There's a dread of inevitability. That she'll return, and it'll be right back where she was. Dying. Dead. Gone.]
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[jiuqing's vibes are very certain - but then, they would be, wouldn't they? waking up to a second chance at life is nothing new to her. this is perhaps not quite the situation as her own case, but the facts are the same: hot pants was dead, and now she's live.
they'll find a way back to their own worlds, but she doesn't believe that hot pants will simply drop dead after leaving the prism.]
I believe that when someone is given a second chance, it's for a reason. So... there's no way that it's just going to be the end for you once all of this - [she waves a hand to indicate their current situation] - is over.
You saw my memories. What would you tell me if I said that it was perfectly fine for me to take risks, because I had already died once?
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[Her emotions...react with a sort of understanding, and for a moment, it almost feels like she's ready to believe - except something seems to drag them back to where they once were, like they're stuck in a rut, unable to be free.]
I mean...you do what you can with your life. And its good you have a second chance. Its what you deserve.
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You deserve that, too. I truly believe that.
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I'm not a good person, Su. At least...I'm trying to make it up for not being one. I don't know if I deserve that much.
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You have a lot of faith in me, Su.
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