chroma | catchall for vin

[countermeasures]

i haven't had coffee yet so this won't be pretty yet

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[countermeasures]

[wow. the tag you replied to did not age well.]

I think there may have been others he was closer to, but... I very much enjoyed his company.

[allomantic]

[cries in post trial]

Knowing that there were others he was close to doesn't really change your feelings, does it?

[countermeasures]

No, but it makes me feel a little like I'm... making it about myself, almost. When really, it's about the fact that he's gone.

His loss affected a lot of people, not just me.

[allomantic]

...I do not think it is selfish to say when something is affecting you, if it is hurting you. Especially since I asked.

[countermeasures]

...

[she nods]

It does hurt. And... I'm very angry. I want to find out who did this to him and punish them.

[lol. she will regret these words tomorrow.]

[allomantic]

[more curious than judgmental:]

Will you feel the same if they were compelled?

[countermeasures]

I think if I stop to think about it, I'll feel differently.

But... right now, I'm just angry.

[allomantic]

I don't think there's anything wrong with that.

[or at least, she imagines she would feel similarly if their positions were reversed.]

[countermeasures]

...objectively, I should blame whatever compelled them, not... them, but.

[allomantic]

Objectiveness is... difficult in such circumstances.

[countermeasures]

It is.

[but she wants to be fair, too. what if it was someone who didn't really want to hurt him? ...but still, they did hurt him. it's a mess, and it will only get messier the next day.]