chroma | catchall for vin

[countermeasures]

i haven't had coffee yet so this won't be pretty yet

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[allomantic]

[well - her vibes shift from anger to sadness, and she closes her eyes for a moment.]

I hope that... if he said something, it was because his opinion changed.

[though she suspects it was only because he was running out of time.]

[countermeasures]

...I think that it must have. He was adamant that he didn't want to say anything, at the beginning of the week.

[but... her vibes shift to a little hopeful.]

...I'm hoping that being able to feel how you and others care for him... would have helped get through to him, and given him the courage to tell you how he felt.

[allomantic]

...It would be nice if that were true.

[though it wouldn't change the end result, either, but - the idea that he at least knew that he mattered to the people around him before the end... it's better than the alternative.]

[countermeasures]

I think it was. It's... easy to disbelieve someone's words, but...

Not so easy to disbelieve someone's feelings, when you can feel them yourself.

[so. she would really, really like to believe that atsushi was able to know just how much he was cared for.]

[allomantic]

...Then I will hope that he benefited from this week, at least.

[along with the sorrow, there's a worry and a fondness as she says that.]

[countermeasures]

I'll hope for that as well.

[if even one good thing can come from this week and its effect...]

[allomantic]

[it's quiet, but:]

He deserved it.

[countermeasures]

He did. He was... very kind to other people, but he was not very kind to himself.

So... I hope others treated him kindly in return, and that he was able to learn to see himself the way we do.

[allomantic]

[she nods. her vibes are Bad, but:]

I think - I hope he was the kind of person anyone would have trouble being cruel to. But I know that was not always his experience, where he came from. [...] This place itself is cruel, but I have to believe that the people here have been kinder to him than what he's known.

[countermeasures]

...

[she reaches for vin's hand to give it a gentle squeeze]

I know he's been experiencing more kindness than he knew before. He had you at his side, after all.

[allomantic]

...He should have had more.

[in the end, despite the reasoning she had, despite the fact that there wasn't any option that would have saved him - it doesn't change that she put a dagger in his chest.]

[countermeasures]

...

[yeah, no. vin is getting a hug.]

[allomantic]

[her eyes are getting a little wet again, but she's trying very hard to keep both the tears and the bad vibes at bay. it is not quite working.]

[countermeasures]

[vin :c

jiuqing's heart breaks for her when she feels her trying to stifle the bad vibes. there's a protectiveness in her own feelings, and sympathy, and love - the type you'd feel for family. a good family, that is.

(i feel the need to specify because there is like only one member of her birth family that doesn't suck.)]

[allomantic]

[she doesn't let go, but - those feelings are mirrored in her own, too.]

[countermeasures]

[i guess they will just hug it out]