[It absolutely is painful to recall, and Jiuqing will feel that flux in his emotions as he starts to talk about it. He draws his knees up closer to him as he tries to push down those feelings of anxiety and regret.]

I was by myself in the apartment, and it just...I know it's sounds silly, but ever since that 'trip' I can't stand being alone for long.

[His trauma...]

So I went looking to see who else was awake. It was stupid, I should have just stayed put, but it was like...at the time it seemed perfectly logical. Like of course I should go looking for other people, that's what makes sense.

I ended up finding Vanille on the beach.