now that they're back and she's not aggressively trying to keep people calm lest any strong feelings cause certain people to turn into goats, she's allowing herself to feel without the blanket of calm from her hairpin - there's grief, because she's upset about atsushi and hurting for vin and ruby; there's anger, because she's so sick of this place making sport out of their lives; there's regret, because maybe if they'd done something a little differently, they could have repeated just the first part of last week...?
but there's purpose, too, as she looks at the gumball app on her phone. roxana can't see how many tokens she has i'm pretty sure, but each time she looks at it she reminds herself that she's going to try for something helpful tomorrow, as soon as she can.
she takes a breath, sets it down, and then opens the fridge to grab a bottle of mineral water.]
week four, sunday
now that they're back and she's not aggressively trying to keep people calm lest any strong feelings cause certain people to turn into goats, she's allowing herself to feel without the blanket of calm from her hairpin - there's grief, because she's upset about atsushi and hurting for vin and ruby; there's anger, because she's so sick of this place making sport out of their lives; there's regret, because maybe if they'd done something a little differently, they could have repeated just the first part of last week...?
but there's purpose, too, as she looks at the gumball app on her phone. roxana can't see how many tokens she has i'm pretty sure, but each time she looks at it she reminds herself that she's going to try for something helpful tomorrow, as soon as she can.
she takes a breath, sets it down, and then opens the fridge to grab a bottle of mineral water.]
...did you need anything to drink, Miss Roxana?