chroma | catchall for buzen gou

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i'll make this pretty later

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...yes. You're right about that.

[it's helping right now! she's actually able to smile. a little. it doesn't fully reach her eyes, because this whole day has been exhausting and hard, but it's better than it was.]

[hasteful]

[ . . . good. his expression softens at that too, and he'll just keep his arm around her, hand resting at her shoulder and occasionally just letting his thumb brush against her in slow, repetitive strokes]

We'll be okay, Doctor Su. And I'll be with you until then - so neither of us have to go through the hard parts alone.

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...thank you.

[she breathes out. there's a tension in her shoulders that doesn't go away, even as he brushes his thumb against her to soothe her, but it's fine. she's not as tense as she could be. baby steps.]

I'll be alright tomorrow. It's just a little hard right now.

[hasteful]

[he doesn't seem to mind, at least - he'll continue idly, expecting nothing.]

That's okay. And you can take longer than tomorrow if you need to.

But at least for now... I think it's alright to stew in emotion. We... feel them because we care so strongly, right?

[at least. that's a sword's understanding of it. the way that the heart moves without permission.]

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[she will not actually be okay tomorrow because that execution was horrifying]

Yes... that's right. If we didn't care, we wouldn't feel anything at all.

[hasteful]

[he nods at that]

... and maybe it's a bit funny to hear from me, given how long I spent as a blade -

But I'm glad. That you're not as sharp and cold as we can be. The burden of caring... it's still warmer than that.

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[something he says gets her to hum thoughtfully, and she continues staring out at the view from the rooftop.]

I don't think it's that funny to hear... people take up weapons because they have things they care deeply about. So, of course you'd have opinions about caring.

[hasteful]

[buzen grins a little at that - ]

Ah, you get it, Doctor Su.

Though this is the first time that I got a chance to choose what I care about... it's kinda nice.

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[ah... that makes sense, too. if people are wielding him, he never would have gotten the chance to choose what to be wielded for, would he? he'd just have to go along with it.]

...the freedom to choose suits you, Buzen.