jiuqing looks up. her expression is a little hard to read - a mix of emotions that she isn't quite sure how to express, frustration with herself, and determination to just be okay. she wants to be okay.]
...I will be.
[if she speaks it into existence, it has to happen.]
[well, maybe they wouldn't. but jiuqing isn't fully comfortable being that vulnerable in front of other people.
still - hot pants really does remind her of someone she knows. enough so that instead of brushing her off entirely, she rests her chin on her knees where she's crouched in front of the planters.]
We don't know enough about them. Before I judge whether or not to trust someone, I prefer to meet them face to face. And it was pointed out to me... that the worst things here began in earnest after their first note appeared.
But it could also have been that those things were always going to happen, and that the Dreamer was trying to warn us.
I feel the same way. Right now, I don't know enough to completely trust them, but neither shall I refuse aid.
[The thing about the note, though...]
[She bumps her shoulder against the other.]
...Either way, we need to find a way to reach out. And find out more. We can't swim blind, anymore. I don't want to see us be used, whether in the form of our words, or us.
[she bumps her shoulder back against hot pants's and manages a tired smile.]
...I agree. We need more information. And if we can manage it, we need this person to talk to us directly. Not by a note, not by a hallucination - face to face, so they can answer our questions.
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jiuqing looks up. her expression is a little hard to read - a mix of emotions that she isn't quite sure how to express, frustration with herself, and determination to just be okay. she wants to be okay.]
...I will be.
[if she speaks it into existence, it has to happen.]
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[Yeah, she knows those expressions. She knows that feeling all too well.]
...You can back off and...feel what you want to feel. Just for a moment. No one would blame you for that.
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[well, maybe they wouldn't. but jiuqing isn't fully comfortable being that vulnerable in front of other people.
still - hot pants really does remind her of someone she knows. enough so that instead of brushing her off entirely, she rests her chin on her knees where she's crouched in front of the planters.]
I don't know. I might.
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You hated seeing yourself that way? As...whatever that was?
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I hated that this place used me to hurt her.
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[She closes her eyes, also thinking to it, and...she nods.]
It was like...rubbing salt in the wound. And for what?
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[fuck executions.]
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[Yeah. Fuck executions.]
It's one thing to deliver justice. Its another to put on a show and...revel in it.
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[...]
But that felt evil beyond measure.
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[...]
Perhaps it doesn't have a human morality. Perhaps it operates in ways that aren't good or evil, but are simply beyond our understanding.
But... I'm not sure I want to be able to understand something that could do that.
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[Because yes, its one thing if it didn't know, didn't understand, but...]
We have to stop whatever is doing this at all costs. I won't...I won't see another Marie.
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There must be some way to stop it. We just haven't found it yet.
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...Do you think we should believe in this Dreamer, Doctor Su?
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[...]
We don't know enough about them. Before I judge whether or not to trust someone, I prefer to meet them face to face. And it was pointed out to me... that the worst things here began in earnest after their first note appeared.
But it could also have been that those things were always going to happen, and that the Dreamer was trying to warn us.
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[The thing about the note, though...]
[She bumps her shoulder against the other.]
...Either way, we need to find a way to reach out. And find out more. We can't swim blind, anymore. I don't want to see us be used, whether in the form of our words, or us.
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...I agree. We need more information. And if we can manage it, we need this person to talk to us directly. Not by a note, not by a hallucination - face to face, so they can answer our questions.
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Especially since if I don't like their answers, I can just punch them.
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that actually startles a giggle out of her]
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...What? I mean it.
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[just. hot pants lining up and punching their problems square in the nose.]
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[She makes a little punch. Pow.]
[She is a jock.]
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only i guess it's not going to get any better than it is now since he's dead and those lessons are over.]
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[APPROVING NOD]
Yeah. Like that. Just don't forget to put your body into it too.
[also wow dana WOW]
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Like that?
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