jiuqing's heart twists, but she doesn't let go of hot pants's hand.]
No regrets.
[hot pants really is much braver than her.
she's kept things to herself before, even when she knew she might regret it if she didn't say something. she's said things she didn't mean before, because it was safer -
(—as long as you stay away from me, the princess won't mind me at all. am i wrong?)
is that what this is, she wonders? is responding this way something that she'll come to regret? is she really uncertain if they feel the same way about each other, or is she just trying to convince herself so because she's afraid—?
she does know that she doesn't want to lose hot pants. not to death, and not to this place. she's a precious friend to her, and she wants to protect her as best she can.]
You're very kind. [she means it. hot pants's kindness is one of the things that's kept her going here, whether hot pants is able to recognize her own kindness or not - that's just a fact.] And knowing you're there... that gives me strength.
You shine too... like the sun.
[hot pants is warm, and bright. and maybe it's hard to get close to her, sometimes - just like you can't look too closely, or too directly, at the sun; maybe sometimes she's a little harsh.
...I'll continue to give you strength for as long as I can.
[For as long as she...lives. Well. That could always change, in a place like this. But the point stands. It feels good, when she's there for others. It feels good, to know that she can be relied on. Its why she beats herself up for not being strong enough, not being stalwart enough, sometimes, but...]
[She knows, even in the way Su looks at her, that she is doing well enough, and it makes her feel warm. She'll be a sun if Su wants her to be. She'll shine with whatever she has.]
[She gives a squeeze of the hand.]
Ha. I should say that to you. I admire you. You're one of the strongest people I know.
[she's earnest - everything about the look on her face to the tone of her voice. because she really, really means it. hot pants is truly one of the strongest people she's ever met.]
...and, I hope I'll be able to give you strength too.
[even if their feelings for each other are different, that doesn't lessen how jiuqing cares even the slightest bit. it doesn't change that she wants hot pants to be safe, and happy, and well, and if she can support her in that, in any way - she wants to.]
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jiuqing's heart twists, but she doesn't let go of hot pants's hand.]
No regrets.
[hot pants really is much braver than her.
she's kept things to herself before, even when she knew she might regret it if she didn't say something. she's said things she didn't mean before, because it was safer -
(—as long as you stay away from me, the princess won't mind me at all. am i wrong?)
is that what this is, she wonders? is responding this way something that she'll come to regret? is she really uncertain if they feel the same way about each other, or is she just trying to convince herself so because she's afraid—?
she does know that she doesn't want to lose hot pants. not to death, and not to this place. she's a precious friend to her, and she wants to protect her as best she can.]
You're very kind. [she means it. hot pants's kindness is one of the things that's kept her going here, whether hot pants is able to recognize her own kindness or not - that's just a fact.] And knowing you're there... that gives me strength.
You shine too... like the sun.
[hot pants is warm, and bright. and maybe it's hard to get close to her, sometimes - just like you can't look too closely, or too directly, at the sun; maybe sometimes she's a little harsh.
but that doesn't make her any less wonderful.]
I really admire you, you know.
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[For as long as she...lives. Well. That could always change, in a place like this. But the point stands. It feels good, when she's there for others. It feels good, to know that she can be relied on. Its why she beats herself up for not being strong enough, not being stalwart enough, sometimes, but...]
[She knows, even in the way Su looks at her, that she is doing well enough, and it makes her feel warm. She'll be a sun if Su wants her to be. She'll shine with whatever she has.]
[She gives a squeeze of the hand.]
Ha. I should say that to you. I admire you. You're one of the strongest people I know.
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[she's earnest - everything about the look on her face to the tone of her voice. because she really, really means it. hot pants is truly one of the strongest people she's ever met.]
...and, I hope I'll be able to give you strength too.
[even if their feelings for each other are different, that doesn't lessen how jiuqing cares even the slightest bit. it doesn't change that she wants hot pants to be safe, and happy, and well, and if she can support her in that, in any way - she wants to.]