jiuqing's heart twists, but she doesn't let go of hot pants's hand.]
No regrets.
[hot pants really is much braver than her.
she's kept things to herself before, even when she knew she might regret it if she didn't say something. she's said things she didn't mean before, because it was safer -
(—as long as you stay away from me, the princess won't mind me at all. am i wrong?)
is that what this is, she wonders? is responding this way something that she'll come to regret? is she really uncertain if they feel the same way about each other, or is she just trying to convince herself so because she's afraid—?
she does know that she doesn't want to lose hot pants. not to death, and not to this place. she's a precious friend to her, and she wants to protect her as best she can.]
You're very kind. [she means it. hot pants's kindness is one of the things that's kept her going here, whether hot pants is able to recognize her own kindness or not - that's just a fact.] And knowing you're there... that gives me strength.
You shine too... like the sun.
[hot pants is warm, and bright. and maybe it's hard to get close to her, sometimes - just like you can't look too closely, or too directly, at the sun; maybe sometimes she's a little harsh.
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jiuqing's heart twists, but she doesn't let go of hot pants's hand.]
No regrets.
[hot pants really is much braver than her.
she's kept things to herself before, even when she knew she might regret it if she didn't say something. she's said things she didn't mean before, because it was safer -
(—as long as you stay away from me, the princess won't mind me at all. am i wrong?)
is that what this is, she wonders? is responding this way something that she'll come to regret? is she really uncertain if they feel the same way about each other, or is she just trying to convince herself so because she's afraid—?
she does know that she doesn't want to lose hot pants. not to death, and not to this place. she's a precious friend to her, and she wants to protect her as best she can.]
You're very kind. [she means it. hot pants's kindness is one of the things that's kept her going here, whether hot pants is able to recognize her own kindness or not - that's just a fact.] And knowing you're there... that gives me strength.
You shine too... like the sun.
[hot pants is warm, and bright. and maybe it's hard to get close to her, sometimes - just like you can't look too closely, or too directly, at the sun; maybe sometimes she's a little harsh.
but that doesn't make her any less wonderful.]
I really admire you, you know.