It's something I can hardly run from, even if I hadn't expected it to haunt me so viscerally as it does here.
I was a fool, simply put. I was so angry at being left to live on that what was left of my withered soul, I dedicated solely to killing Nidhogg. The exact replica of Nidhogg's own, whose existence became defined only by his hatred of man, and his desire to see them all wiped out, or die trying. 'Twas all-too-easy, after weathering his thoughts for months in close proximity, letting my guard down too early when we felled King Thordan, for the rancor in his blood to link to that I held in my own heart, and turn me into his plaything.
[ Does that paint a clear picture? Why that monstrosity felt so seamless. He chews the inside of his mouth, eyes low, considering. It was traumatic, but he'd made his peace. But it's still there. An odd balance. ]
I have said our goodbye to that hatred since, when I found and destroyed my eyes, deplorably being used to bolster another's quest of vengeance, but for the last time. I borrow that strength often, but for better, where I can.
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It's something I can hardly run from, even if I hadn't expected it to haunt me so viscerally as it does here.
I was a fool, simply put. I was so angry at being left to live on that what was left of my withered soul, I dedicated solely to killing Nidhogg. The exact replica of Nidhogg's own, whose existence became defined only by his hatred of man, and his desire to see them all wiped out, or die trying. 'Twas all-too-easy, after weathering his thoughts for months in close proximity, letting my guard down too early when we felled King Thordan, for the rancor in his blood to link to that I held in my own heart, and turn me into his plaything.
[ Does that paint a clear picture? Why that monstrosity felt so seamless. He chews the inside of his mouth, eyes low, considering. It was traumatic, but he'd made his peace. But it's still there. An odd balance. ]
I have said our goodbye to that hatred since, when I found and destroyed my eyes, deplorably being used to bolster another's quest of vengeance, but for the last time. I borrow that strength often, but for better, where I can.